I have been fighting……… fighting the enemy that has been creating destructions, strange trails, obstacles and frustrations in my life. Making everything I do trying, tiring and difficult. My fight with the enemy did not start now. As a little child I ate razor blade, by the time they discover pieces of razor blades in my mouth, the rest of the pieces were already in my tummy and would only come out in hospital. That experience threatened to end my life but I survive.
But in the last few years the battle took a different form all together. The battle became fierce, no amount of prayer, fasting and bible reading was going to hedge me in and exempt me from “these” attacks. A messenger of Satan has been assigned to buffet me, if I were to use the words of the Apostle Paul. During this time, I experienced loss, disappointment, failure and rejection. I wonder what it is about me that attracted so much of the enemy’s attention, what qualified me to be such a target. What does the enemy know that I do not know? But it does not matter “for the gifts and calling of God are without repentance.” No amount of persecution, harassment and attack has ever stopped God’s plan for one’s life.
In the book of 2 Corinthians 12, the Apostle Paul spoke about a thorn in the flesh that was given to him. He said concerning this thing, he pleaded with the Lord three times asking him to remove it. And the Lord responded by saying, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” The Lord gave Apostle Paul assurance of His grace and His strength. Evidently, there has always been grace for both my race and my case, and there has always been strength in my weakness.
I have always have this love affair with music, I love music, it has a way of expressing what am feeling but just cannot find the right words to say it. As I was meditating on the grace of God for my life, I thought of the words in the song by Darlene Zschech titled “The greatest our God”, there is a verse where the song goes like:
Give me grace to see beyond this moment here,
To believe that there is nothing left to fear,
That You alone are high above it all,
You my God are greater still.
This song reminded me of who is in control. Sometimes we make a mistake of making Satan bigger than God. We exalt Satan’s attacks beyond God’s ability to deliver. Truth be told, there are many battles God has fought unbeknown to me. God has allowed this messenger of Satan to buffet me so that I can learn to trust and depend on Him completely.
Life is a battlefield, you and I will always be fighting something. I read somewhere that the ship to our destiny cannot be smooth sailing, we will encounter contrary winds that are designed to fill the boat with water and sink the ship. But, the One who is the storm calmer, Jesus Christ will arise in times of desperation and say “Peace be still.” Mark 4:39
Yes, I have been fighting……… fighting strange trials. But I am here to tell the story. I might not be where I am suppose to be, I might have had many interruptions aIong the way, I might be driving around life on a slow lane with a flat tire, but my destiny is still intact. The enemy might have thought he has diverted it, but God is redirecting it.